Honestly felt Like total utter shit waking up today. Let that be a lesson to people that drinking and crashing late when you have something important you have to go to in the morning like work Don't Mix as well as that margarita you liked.
After I drowned my mouth with toothpaste and brushed till my gums hurt I was able to wake up and start the day and BAM rain ....seriously Rain like come on man.
Why am I bothering to type this cause it just goes to show that sometimes it takes will just to get up some mornings drinking or not...
In the past week and a half alone I got probably an average 3-4 hours of sleep to my name. That's F'n Terrible by any standards. But its my life and I'm crashing through it one day at a time.
The worst part is knowing everyone else is sleeping soundly while you sit there , thinking , analyzing , taking apart and put back together days of your life flashing by and the who what and where of everything.
It sucks cause you assume you can figure it all out like a math equation but all you get in the end is little to no sleep, bigger problems, and more issues with tissues. To sit there and think over and over about one thing would usually drive people mad and its not that way.
I'm not mad just a little crazy . But who can be sane in this crazy world that we live in? Honestly Who isn't a little unhinged or set a stray by the moments that make life seem unbearable then livable at the next moment? Don't raise your damn hands cause you know your lying to yourself and me . I don't like being lied to but I myself have been labeled a Liar. But its a fact of life that we all lie , cheat , and steal at some point or another. No one is not without sin and before you start throwing stones how bout you smack yourself in the face with one first.
Being awake right now helps me focus on essential things that i know i have to get done as an adult, but when I look back at all these sleepless nights I realize something. Its only a problem when you keep thinking about it . Those bills wont pay themselves but you know you can pay them, so stop thinking about it. That food wont cook itself but you can /will cook it so relax. That girl or guy ain't gonna talk to you so stop. Stop thinking for one single minute and I promise it will be bliss. Ignorance is Bliss and that is the truest words ever spoken by Us as human beings.
If your ignorant to it , numb , apathetic whatever to it then you stop seeing it as a problem. There is a solution to it , its not a fuckin Rubik cube it just simply an issue when you make it one. Thus removing the issue removes the problem removes the worry removes the stress. Will you be happy probably not right away but eventually you will smile you will shine brighter and you will sleep.
Well you will I still got shit I need to think about Cause lets face it I'm crazy and I need to think about that for another moment and perhaps another thing and another and another and another and another and another .....Till i finally Crash....
Till next write.
Rob
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