Linkin Park - Place for my Head Reanimation
This song used to make me upset
It used to fill me with a huge rage that built up in me
As the lyrics faded and it reached a eruption point I would scream the lyrics
I would scream them till my voice became so Loud I could shatter glass
I Sang/Screamed the end part till My voice went sore
I Screamed them till I became numb my body shaking as I did so
I would feel my tears roll down my face as I did so
Sometimes I would fall to the ground expressing such anger
I would feel so angry I could not control my pitch, fists , face , nothing
I would grow red hot with anger
Then when It was over I would feel drained all the anger that was building up
It now had left my body and no longer was a part of me
It escaped me I had transformed that anger into words not directed to anyone
But was that true?
I yelled these words and Screamed them till i turned into Rage itself and other would be around
They would feel my anger they would feel my rage
They would be scared and think Is it for me
Is this tortured anger meant for me is it so hateful toward me?
When I screamed My aim was sometimes to people to things in my life
To express them outright to have them be felt
To let people know the extent of my anger
To the point even the Hulk himself would come to say "Its okay man"
Did I just need a hug, a kiss, a smile
Perhaps I needed a fight to win
I needed something because that anger was destroying me from the inside
It consumed me it eradicated love in an instant
Shattered remains of happiness were what I had to pick up after this attack
But Then I realized why do i keep picking these pieces up ?
Why Do I Keep fighting to hold on to this or any kind of happiness?
After Some time I haven't listened to the song
I didn't want to bring back that much anger to myself to others
To have people fear me , fear what I might do or say
But I played it as loud as I could the other day
I played it and listened and as I got to that crucial end part
As I got there as it slowly came in with a piano tune
My rage started building , I pictured myself alone but there was someone there
As the music went on and the lyrics came In I moved toward that figure
I moved toward that person and as my anger grew , tears formed
The tears rolled down my cheeks as I approached this person
What was i angry about at who , who tormented me so much that simple words enraged me
*You try to take the best of me
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me
You try to take the best *
As these lyrics poured over me I saw that person
I saw the monster that was tormenting me
I saw the beast for what it truly was
As I approached it my tears flowed like a river my anger reached a tipping point
It was me...
*Go, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away *
At this stage I grab him , I grab that monster that i was angry at
I throw my hands at him I punch him till my hands hurt
I force him tot he ground with every ounce of strength I have
I grab the beer bottle from his hands
I smash it into his face over and over and over again
I smash his skull to the floor I release my utter rage unto him
This beast who cost me everything this monster who was not me
It was someone I didn't want to become
All around me darkness, blood and him still mocking me smiling laughing
Cause he took over me as if he had won but I refused to let him win
More of him popped up around me I fought on
I fought till my knuckles bled , I fought till my lungs ran out of air
I kept fighting but they seem to keep winning
Laughing mocking me with memories of how hurtful and abusive I was
How I would drink My life away
How I had this rage and instead of focusing it I let it out on others left and right
I stood there I grasped my Head ....
*You try to take the best of me (get away from me), go away
You try to take the best of me, go away
You try to take the best of me, go away *
As All hope seems lost as I sit on the knees ready to concede
I Scream the last Lyric of the song
*Get away from ME! *
The images of that past me shatter into millions of shards of glass
I collapse as the shards fall ever so slowly around me
I hold myself ....empty ...alone ....with tears on my face
I hold myself and smile ....knowing that I know the demon was no one else but me
And That I can control him , I can overcome , I can win
That no matter how mad I get , he will never come over me again
That no matter what occurs It will be better for he is not here
I wont allow him to be here , This is my home not his
For he was a destroyer of worlds and I have become that to create
The pieces I picked up weren't of my happiness
They were of that other side of me
I picked them up so that no one can step on them and feel them hurt anymore
I picked them up cause it doesn't hurt me to be cut by them
But I would not and do not and never again want someone else to feel this
This hate , this anger , this rage ...they don't and never deserve it
I pick them up to save others from it , so they may not spill their blood for it
I spill my blood for it , I protect others from that in which used to envelope me
They need not feel that anymore , they need not fear that anymore
I toss the pieces to be destroyed ...
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